Last night hearts on fire rally was an amazing experience.
The songs were great. I admit to feeling detached from these events for too long a time. Sometimes i just wonder whether going to church every sunday since P3 made church evolve.
From a joyful experience, to a social networking place, then to a long drawn ritual.
I had alot of second thoughts about the event, alot of fears, doubts and my laziness almost creeped in last minute. It was a wayyy last minute decision but probably one of the only times that im actually absolutely sure that my choice is was the right one.

Its just prominent in these events the power of God's grace. During the exposition of the Blessed Sacrament i was pondering on alot of stuff and issues. Yea i actually do have my issues, though only very few people are aware of them. And i realised that God is really awesome to help me cope with my issues, but not only that, the issues of billions of people in the world who turn to him in desperation. I mean, God is like a super manager of humans, he's a divine power who personally relates to and connects with billions of people. And that is amazing because his love is enough for all mankind. My goodness man, that is really alot of love, and he has it. But despite me turning to him in desperation most times he still loves me all the same, which is wonderful! So last night i decided to turn to him more in adoration than desperation, which i think is what he duely deserves.
Okay i have been using 'he' so people who think God is a woman then read it was 'she' okay. HAHAHA.

I felt shaky but peaceful after healing. The woman praying over me during healing made me shaky cause she was speaking in tongues then she started crying. So i was wondering what was wrong with her. I mean, they were praying in tongues, which i admit is something i can't understand. I havent aquired the skill to actually put words to what tongues are saying. but last night i just let the tongues wash through me and i felt an inner peace which worldly language can't give. She patted me,crying and said 'Jesus loves you' Then i was like 'Mam, i'm sure Jesus loves you too'. Okay i called her mam because she was an ageing lady :P

Perhaps this is inspiration. Don't worry i'm not turning into Ivan (okay joking) or some psycho bible reciting crazy person. I still think i'll engage in worldly satisfaction. You don't see me swearing that i'll quit drinking, or cursing or engaging in interesting gossip. But i think that God will change me from within somehow,and i believe that what is inside that matters and i think that trying is the first step.

Elo, Nette, Nat, Dora, Tara and whoever else who i knew was there, yea it was an amazing night. Probably not as punk rock as a concert, probably not as polished as a christian rally but i think it touched everyone.

Okay i'm going to bathe, and think how to cope with my history tutorial D:
Haha my birthday celebrations start tonight! (: Grandma aunties cousins all (:
Till then.